No Going Back

"It's no use going back to yesterday, because I was a different person then.” quote by Alice in, Alice in Wonderland.

Have you ever felt like you fell in a rabbit hole? In other words, what you thought how things were going to go, abruptly and maybe significantly changes?

I've been thinking...

I’ve been thinking about this especially as I have been finishing up my website.I learned DropboxTM, and Google docs with screen shots and so much more.What I didn’t know and couldn’t figure out I asked for help. 

Then the day came where my computer totally shut down.I spent many hours getting more help.Pretty much everything is retrieved back, but I realized during this that it was NOT the picture of how I thought this was all going to go.

I felt as though I had fallen through the rabbit hole and I did not have any idea of how to climb out. It was not true, but it is how I felt.

In the process...

In the process of learning things and writing things for the website I didn’t account for my computer crashing and had no idea of how to get everything back. That wasn’t part of the plan.I could work on the website and get help to do that, but my computer crashing was not part of the plan.

I remember at this point wondering if I have anything more to give.If I can stretch myself any farther.In some ways I was at the end of myself.

Technology-not my first language...

Technology is not my first language. I was not prepared in any way to learn a new language. I had accepted this and was willing in any way to learn what I could and get help with the rest. I had no idea that all of this was going to be true, but I also was going to become someone more “techy” because I had to. I had to go down this road alone. As the quote above says, that there isn’t any use going back to the person I was. 

I realized this computer and website challenge is a picture of a lot of life…What I mean is am I glad to have gone through all the growing pains to be who I am right now? I would say yes now, but actually going through it was hard. I think it is good that I didn’t know all that I was going to go through or I don’t think that I would have had the courage to take the challenge and the risks that I did.

How about YOU?

What about you? Have you ever felt like you were at a place where you knew that either you were going to end up a different person or end up quitting?